On being here

They always say time flies, which is sort of ridiculous since time is literally the ultimate constant. Time isn’t rushing by, people are just in a rush all the time. Slowing down can be scary sometimes, especially for me, but being in a rush and trying to get to the next thing doesn’t really serve a purpose and I’ve realized there is no safety in securing a future I’d never be able to get. The popularity of mindfulness and meditation seems to be growing and lately I feel like it’s all anyone is talking about. Though I’ve heard talk of staying present it’s only very recently that I even began to fully understand what that meant by experiencing it. I know I’m not alone in feeling like life is speeding by, I wonder how much of that speed is an illusion I’ve created for myself because of a self imposed rush.

I remember vividly as a little girl hearing my mother to stop being in such a rush to grow up, and like any little girl wanting to be big I didn’t really pay much attention to it. Lately I’ve been making an effort to consciously slow down enough to realize that I don’t need to rush. Whenever I rush through my day or through my life, I spend so much time preparing for the future that I forget about the now. Don’t get me wrong, the future is important and Future Jordana will definitely attest to that, but if I spend so much time anticipating what could be, or should be, or will be, or won’t be, hurrying around frantically trying to create a perfect future for myself not only will I miss what is happening right in front of me, I won’t even be able to anticipate my future because I’m skipping the important step of Right Now. It’s really scary to close your eyes and look at your life for everything that it is and just sit in that moment, but if you don’t you’ll miss it.

I just googled it, and apparently as I writing this I’ve been alive for 9,790 days. In April it will be my big 10k! It’s been a long road to get where I am and I’m no where near done. Slowing down is still really scary for me a lot of the time, but it is also really liberating. Whether I am in too much of a rush to see it or not I am the one living this moment today. I don’t want to miss it anymore, and I’m going to tell my daughter just like my mom told me that life is happening all around her every day.

If you’re interesting in slowing down too, we should get together and make some photo magic. It’s the most powerful experience to take the time to celebrate and notice who you are and visually see everything you can be in your photos.